Thursday, April 14, 2011

Updates & More

Hey everyone!

I am pleased to announce that I have officially been on my permanent lifestyle change for over a month now!! GO ME!! Usually by this time, I am extremely frustrated and have thrown in the towel, but due to the relentless support and encouragement by my dear friend, I am staying on the right track. If you are deciding to embark on a total lifestyle change, your success rate is higher if you have people doing it with you, and people constantly pushing and encouraging you to challenge yourself. While I do know I have lost some weight, unfortunately, I don't know how much. I don't have a scale. I would be embarrassed, but I have a bad habit of dogging the scale. When I started low carbing a few years ago, I would wake up every morning, relieve myself, and get on the scale. When I lost a pound a day, I was ecstatic. But when I got on the scale and saw I hadn't lost weight, or had gained, I was disgusted and annoyed with myself. I will weigh in eventually, but right now, I'm just enjoying the little differences here and there.

As I evaluate the direction of my life and the things I have been through over the years, I have come up with one startling revelation. I DESPISE CHANGE!!! In some ways being resilient to change can be okay, but in my case, it is absolutely terrible. I have a tendency to want things to stay the same and not rock the boat because I hate being outside of my comfort zone. I have played life very safe for the most part, rarely taking chances and throwing caution to the wind. I am doing my best to work on this major character flaw because I want my children to embrace change an not stay in a position of stagnancy. Parents, at the end of the day, our behavior does have an impact on our children's lives, so we must ask ourselves daily, "What am I teaching the little people?"

At first I was seriously considering going to the doctor and having them test me for ADHD because I can never stay completely focused on one task. I have written the beginning of 4 stories and have yet to complete one. I do have some finished products to my name, but recently, whenever an idea strikes, I'm hyped about it for a minute, and then I am off to something new. I promise I am going to do better...

In short, challenge yourself constantly and learn to step outside of those comfortable boundaries you've built around yourself. When we learn to take chances and just step out on faith, our results are plentiful. I'm not saying if you have nudity issues to go prancing around downtown in 5 o'clock traffic in the buff. Stare in the mirror completely naked and for five minutes tell yourself how beautiful you are. Focus on the good things and leave the negativity at the door. Once you learn to only think, speak, and hear positivity, you will carry yourself in a positive manner and you can kiss your inhibitions goodbye. I'm willing to take a chance on change...care to join me?